i hate to say this, but...

i lose a friend. as much as i want to deny it, it pains me. i don't have a lot of friends but i'm okay with it because i believe in quality over quantity. having that said, a few best friends would be more than enough for me. and losing any of them makes me feel like a part of me had died. i wondered why. i tried thinking hard enough but couldn't find an answer. i cried. i tried comforting myself. i wiped my tears but still feeling very puzzled.

as much as i want to just runaway, i know moving on is the only option.