i know a few people that actually have sleeping problems, and some of them take sleeping pills from time to time. i never quite understand how it is like, or feel; because i'm blessed to have the ability to sleep whenever i feel like, and wherever it is. and frankly speaking, i'm quite happy with this less-useful ability.
but, today,i can't sleep.
- 7.33am
i think the sun has risen. just finished talking to mom on the phone and the thought that i might lose my grandma forever sent chills up my spine. suddenly i was being brought back to february 08. the vague images of grandpa's ward, the faint mediciny smell of the old hospital, the oxygen cylinder that you can rent it and bring back home, the wheelchair in the airport, the mortuary, the funeral, the cremation. i did not realise that these memories were still being stored, and that i actually remembered everything.
- 7.51am
i've gave up on trying to sleep, maybe i should continue with my feeble attempt to salvage tuesday's examination.
-8.14am
i am still not doing anything productive yet.
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